Still in his football gear, his jaw was clenched and he was tearing the pep rally "Go team! He led me to a table near the back, by the smoking section, and slid into the booth across from me. At 15 years old, I didn't understand what had happened. I'm back in those woods, and Patrick's there, too, a few steps ahead of me as I wind down the dirt path, stumbling in the dark. It's almost always the same. Walking up to the clearing by the pond where the party was, I saw right away that Patrick was there and my stomach did flip-flops.
Being by myself and seeing him like this was terrifying, but also electrifying.
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Tap here to turn on desktop notifications to get the news sent straight to you. At school I hoped to pass him in the hallways and at parties I prayed he'd talk to me. At 15 years old, I didn't understand what had happened. Maybe he'll kiss me! When I got to my house, I walked up the front steps and through the door, shutting it quietly behind me. I went to my best friend's house before the party and she did my hair, putting it half-up in a clip and blow-drying and hairspraying my bangs. But he walked fast and was a few steps ahead of me, so I took double steps, stumbling to keep up with him.